A Magical Awareness
What is your awareness telling you?
Have you ever had a magical awareness that created so much relief in your world? In this episode, I share this one moment where I had the magical awareness that completely changed everything for me, especially at a time when there’s so much change going on and we just had to make sense of it all. Sounds relatable? Listen in to know more!
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[00:00:00] Have you ever had a magical awareness that created so much relief in your world? Welcome to Tools to Create a Better Life with myself, Glenyce Hughes. Thank you so much for being here. I am so incredibly grateful for you.
[00:00:16] If you’re watching this by video, you’ll see something really cool behind me. You might not know what that is, but that’s actually a swimming pool. You might not know what that big thing around it is, but that is a granary. We use them in Canada, probably the US, probably many places actually.
[00:00:36] This whole Airbnb that we’re staying at has just created the most unique setup. This one has a pool in it. The one over there has a hot tub in it. The one here, you actually walk through to get to this beautiful, magical place. It’s so cool. If you want, head over to YouTube to watch all of the different pieces in this. It’s just an amazing Airbnb. Now, let’s talk about an awareness that I had.
[00:01:06] It was actually in my very last swim in our beautiful swimming pool before we handed the keys over to the new owners. I have really been sometimes struggling with the changes. I knew it was time to go. I knew being at our beautiful home… I knew we were done there. I knew it was time to go on and live our magical dream of traveling the world, house and pet sitting.
[00:01:37] And yet, there are times when this really weird sad–but I’m not even sure that’s the correct word–energy would come up, and I would just break into tears. I was unconsolable – and I don’t mean like that I needed anybody to console me, but I couldn’t even console me. It was just this really weird, weird energy.
[00:02:01] I would say that this had went on for probably the last six weeks. Not constantly, thank goodness. There were certainly times where I was sad because of the change and choosing something different, and times where I felt terrified because of the change and choosing something different and all the things. There were so many pieces to it, but there was that weird energy.
[00:02:26] And so I was laying in the pool my very last day there. We handed the keys over at noon. It was 10:30 in the morning and I was floating. It was the most beautiful, clearest, hot day, and it was incredible. That energy was coming up again – that bizarre sadness.
[00:02:49] I was like, “What is this?” which is a really great question. I’d asked it actually many times. It wasn’t the first time I’d asked the question, but I was really curious. What is this?
[00:03:02] What I knew was if I left that place, if I left our beautiful previous home we could call it, and that energy, it didn’t actually match what was true for me. What was true for me was I was excited to go forward. I was excited to come to new, unusual Airbnbs and house and pet sitting. I’m so excited for that. But then this weird energy, it doesn’t match that.
[00:03:29] I’m laying in the pool and I was just so, so curious. What is this?
I realized… finally, I had the awareness that changed everything for me. Somewhere along the way, I had this very interesting point of view that that home, that pool, that space was as good as it gets.
[00:03:54] I know, right?! I, of all people, know that it can get better and better and better if we’re willing to ask, right? Like the question: How does it get any better than this? But I hadn’t acknowledged to myself that that’s where I was operating from. “This is it. This is as good as it gets.” What?! That match that energy. That’s where the, again, I’m using the word “sadness” but it didn’t quite match it. It was like everything was gonna be downhill from that.
[00:04:27] It’s so funny to think about now, but that was the energy. I cannot tell you the relief it gave me, the space it gave me. This is a tip, guys. When you have an awareness that you have that release and you have that relief and you have that space, you’re acknowledging what is.
[00:04:49] It wasn’t that I’m acknowledging that this is as good as it gets – no. I’m acknowledging that that’s the lie I was operating from. No wonder I would have this bizarre, sadness and all the crazy. Of course, because it wasn’t true. It was like my awareness was trying to get my attention. Yeah. It truly changed everything for me.
[00:05:14] For me, when we have things like this going on where maybe it makes sense, we could say that of course, it makes sense that I was feeling sad about leaving that beautiful home and doing something different, even though I’m really excited about it. We can justify that sad energy.
[00:05:33] It’s also why, to me, it’s important that we pay attention to the actual, in a sense, the energy behind the energy because what I would have maybe called “sadness,” it was so much more than that. There was such a funky, heavy energy on it.
[00:05:47] I remember talking to some of my friends. It was like, I don’t get it. It doesn’t match what I’m feeling. And yet, it’s still there and it would come up often really where I wouldn’t even think it would like in the most unexpected places and times, and then I would just cry.
[00:06:10] We could really buy into, “This is the way it is. This is how I’m feeling. This makes sense.” But we wanna pay attention to the energy behind the energy so that when it does have that wonk, even though it might make sense, we can “logicize” it.
[00:06:27] Check in with the energy behind the energy because that’s giving you more information. In my case, it was just a lie. I had somehow picked up or bought or created this lie that that place is as good as it gets. My goodness. My goodness! I still cannot tell you the relief in my world.
[00:06:45] The coolest thing, the absolute coolest thing, is I have not shed a tear since that moment. Now, it’s not wrong to cry when you’re changing. It’s never wrong to cry, of course. I don’t mean that. It’s really that. I actually am in alignment energetically with what is true for us.
[00:07:04] When I left there at noon, well, it was 10:00 to noon. I didn’t wanna get caught there in my swimsuit. When I left there, it was pure gratitude. Pure, pure gratitude. Not a weird teary, cry-ey, upset – none of that. I was just really freaking grateful for that place and really tapped into what that beautiful home was asking for, which is some kids to play.
[00:07:37] It’s funny because the previous acreage we had before that one, that was also the energy that I got from that acreage. It really was ready to have kids again. There’s a different energy that kids bring than Hubby and I do. Of course we have his his grandkids and his great grandchild that would come and play and stuff, but the houses, both of these acreages, were looking for full-time kids.
[00:07:58] And so I was able to leave so excited and so grateful for them and also for us and what we can go choose now. What is possible for us now without having a home and all of the things?
[00:08:13] Especially without having a home without a kitty in it. This has been, I would say, one of the most difficult times for Hubby and I in the sense that we’ve never not had a kitty or multiple kitties in the house. To not have one since September, that’s many, many months. I’m [still] very grateful. In a few days, we’re actually gonna head to Calgary for a month and hang out with two sweet little kitties.
[00:08:40] This is the other granary where you basically park over there and you walk through. There’s a beautiful water fountain, and then you walk into this beautiful space with just so much yumminess.
[00:08:54] With all of that, what I encourage you to look at in your life is where are the funky energies, the heavy energies, the icky energies, the weird energies? Even if they make sense, just check in. What’s the energy behind that energy?
[00:09:08] And then the question is, “What is this?” Get curious because here’s the thing: We’re not crazy. We’re not wrong. We’re not bad. We’re not ridiculous. We’re not stupid. All those things that usually we go to, the judgment that we usually do of ourselves, we’re not those things. That I know for sure.
[00:09:30] Even when I first started having that kind of sad, weird, funky energy come up, I remember saying to my friend, “I feel crazy.” I feel crazy because I’m so excited, and yet here I am, packing up a box and ,whew, the water works and the weirdness and all of that.
[00:09:47] But we’re not crazy. What we are, though, is we are aware. That’s where we wanna start, looking at and questioning, “Okay, what is this? What is this?” Not from judgment or harshness or anything, but just through “What is this?” so that we can actually acknowledge ourselves. Again, when we acknowledge what is for us, the relief, the space, the possibilities… I cannot even tell you, my sweet friends. I cannot even tell you the magic in that.
[00:10:18] This is the third granary. This is the one that has the hot tub in it. Oh my goodness. We actually haven’t used it that much because it’s been really hot here. However, in the winter, I can only imagine how incredible that is.
[00:10:31] Remember, you’re not crazy, you’re not evil, you’re not wrong, you’re not bad. You are aware. Start asking, “What is this?” Get curious. Once you acknowledge whatever it is you’re aware of, that relief, that’s where the magic is.
[00:10:45] Thank you so much for watching and listening. I look forward to chatting again next week.
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